[ Squall scoots into the hold. He knows when he had a bit of his emotions drained, when he leaned on Noctis it made him feel a little more energy so maybe it'd be the same for Auron. ]
[That he didn't know at all. He does know that being comforted by Squall is, well, comforting. It does ease that empty feeling of having to realize that Jecht and Braska can no longer be the center of his whole world and he has to move on.
Maybe because he's accepted that, he can appreciate what Squall's doing way more.]
That right? You rage a little bit with your emotions too, Squall?
[He knows why this is comforting now. Because he can't remember anyone ever doing this to him before. He was the monk and the Guardian, the one to give comfort and to take the damage. Not the person that got to be comforted.]
I think...I arrived a little before you did... and within that time, Sora already got his annoyingly positive claws into me. So... I guess I was already starting to.... branch out rather slowly by that time.
I feel less angry... more lost. I dunno. It's mostly just me... still being skittish around people I guess... though I've gotten better... I think I have.
When I first got here. When I didn't really know anyone and I needed help and felt lonely, someone told me something important. That connecting with people and being friends with them involved a certain amount of risk. Mostly because you're putting yourself out there and you may not be accepted. Not only that, but if they leave, it hurts.
But the fact that if you can do that and keep doing it, you'll meet more people and make your life so much richer than it was.
[He's not sure what it is. Is it because Squall didn't take the graceful out and sit up? Is it because he's still stubbornly here? Is it because Auron's still suffering from emotional whiplash?
Something about Squall's actions and what he says does something very odd and rare for Auron. He doesn't want to completely lose his composure, but he does actually hug Squall fiercely and tries. Tries as hard as he can. To cry as quietly as he can.]
[ The sudden act made Squall tense up, but he didn't pull away. This was.... so strange. The only person he's ever really seen crying here was Sora, and as quiet as Auron may be, it wasn't something that was easy to hide.
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Maybe because he's accepted that, he can appreciate what Squall's doing way more.]
Thank you. [He says this in a whisper.]
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[ Even though he says that, he still curled up close to Auron. ]
Just figured yelling at you wouldn't really do much, especially since I'd probably be a hypocrite.
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[He knows why this is comforting now. Because he can't remember anyone ever doing this to him before. He was the monk and the Guardian, the one to give comfort and to take the damage. Not the person that got to be comforted.]
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[ He rolls his eyes but it was directed at himself. ]
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[Auron NO.]
If you felt that alienated from people that you'd shut yourself off with ice, what made you decide to approach me on the network?
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And... I wasn't feeling alienated. I was pissed.
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[ He snorted softly. ]
You can ask Sora, I basically turned the streets into a frozen tundra.
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[With Squall telling him this in confidence, Auron's now the one trying to give what comfort he can offer.]
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But the fact that if you can do that and keep doing it, you'll meet more people and make your life so much richer than it was.
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I just feel anxious all the time...but I guess I dont hate it either.... I don't know it's complicated.
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[He gives one last squeeze across Squall's shoulders before letting him go.]
I do feel better now. Thanks.
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Do you...?
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Something about Squall's actions and what he says does something very odd and rare for Auron. He doesn't want to completely lose his composure, but he does actually hug Squall fiercely and tries. Tries as hard as he can. To cry as quietly as he can.]
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He wouldn't say anything but.... ]
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Sorry. Kinda had a rough few days.
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[ Squall sounded stiff and awkward, but his words were genuine. ]
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I think I'm okay now. Thanks.
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