[Which is probably going to wait until Squall bursts into his room. Auron's just resting in bed, wearing dark clothes and no robe. He does pause a moment to slip on his shades.]
A massive catharsis that involved going through things in my past that I hadn't really shared completely. Sora was there and so was Lightning. Kinda needed them both so I didn't go completely off the deep end.
Kinda threw down lots of destructive dunamis to get it out of my system. So I feel a little tired. A little empty. Figure the best thing to do was start somewhere positive. It's why I bugged you. Aragaki too.
[ Squall scoots into the hold. He knows when he had a bit of his emotions drained, when he leaned on Noctis it made him feel a little more energy so maybe it'd be the same for Auron. ]
[That he didn't know at all. He does know that being comforted by Squall is, well, comforting. It does ease that empty feeling of having to realize that Jecht and Braska can no longer be the center of his whole world and he has to move on.
Maybe because he's accepted that, he can appreciate what Squall's doing way more.]
That right? You rage a little bit with your emotions too, Squall?
[He knows why this is comforting now. Because he can't remember anyone ever doing this to him before. He was the monk and the Guardian, the one to give comfort and to take the damage. Not the person that got to be comforted.]
I think...I arrived a little before you did... and within that time, Sora already got his annoyingly positive claws into me. So... I guess I was already starting to.... branch out rather slowly by that time.
I feel less angry... more lost. I dunno. It's mostly just me... still being skittish around people I guess... though I've gotten better... I think I have.
When I first got here. When I didn't really know anyone and I needed help and felt lonely, someone told me something important. That connecting with people and being friends with them involved a certain amount of risk. Mostly because you're putting yourself out there and you may not be accepted. Not only that, but if they leave, it hurts.
But the fact that if you can do that and keep doing it, you'll meet more people and make your life so much richer than it was.
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[Which is probably going to wait until Squall bursts into his room. Auron's just resting in bed, wearing dark clothes and no robe. He does pause a moment to slip on his shades.]
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[Auron sounds even more tired in person and looks like he needs another day or so of sleep.]
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What kind of trouble did you get yourself into, old man?
[ He sat down on the bed behind Auron, before he flops down beside him. ]
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[ He scoots closer to Auron, but doesn't really face him. ]
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[ Squall let out a soft sigh before pushing Auron over a little more so he could curl up beside him. ]
Troublesome old man.
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[Auron put an arm around Squall's shoulders and sighs as well. He closes his eye and doesn't say anything more.]
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Maybe because he's accepted that, he can appreciate what Squall's doing way more.]
Thank you. [He says this in a whisper.]
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[ Even though he says that, he still curled up close to Auron. ]
Just figured yelling at you wouldn't really do much, especially since I'd probably be a hypocrite.
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[He knows why this is comforting now. Because he can't remember anyone ever doing this to him before. He was the monk and the Guardian, the one to give comfort and to take the damage. Not the person that got to be comforted.]
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[ He rolls his eyes but it was directed at himself. ]
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[Auron NO.]
If you felt that alienated from people that you'd shut yourself off with ice, what made you decide to approach me on the network?
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And... I wasn't feeling alienated. I was pissed.
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[ He snorted softly. ]
You can ask Sora, I basically turned the streets into a frozen tundra.
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[With Squall telling him this in confidence, Auron's now the one trying to give what comfort he can offer.]
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But the fact that if you can do that and keep doing it, you'll meet more people and make your life so much richer than it was.
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I just feel anxious all the time...but I guess I dont hate it either.... I don't know it's complicated.
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