innermonologues | IC Inbox for Empath

[ Although unable to convey the importance to Squall, to simply have him here in this moment of what could be considered heartache... it was more than anything he could have asked for, figuring he would simply be left alone in the cold and snow.

Taking a moment to attempt at composing himself some, he allows himself to look back down to the words etched on the inside of his shield and closes his eyes again shortly after. ]

I know not what to do anymore...

Heart ache... is probably one of the worst feelings you can feel... it feels like someone stabbed you through the chest, without an actual physical wound... It's.... it sucks.

[ Slowly coming to blink, the Warrior once again allows his gaze to linger on his shield he holds close. ]

This is... heartache?

I think... it must be... I can't speak for your feelings, but... I can say I've never seen this kind of reaction out of you before.

[ Squall shifts closer, letting his head rest on Warrior's shoulder, just a little bit. ]

Then what am I to do...?

[ For him to feel such pain like this that cannot be so easily cured with a spell or touch of magic... he feels lost. ]

Find distractions... Things that you have to concentrate on to keep your mind away from the sad thoughts... FInd a new hobby like cooking... some kind of sport... maybe you could spar a little more. Something like that...?

[ Rather than say anything at the suggestions offered, the Warrior comes to hold tight to his shield once more, squeezing it for but a moment. ]

I long to sleep...

Yeah... these kind of feelings do make you want to sleep a lot... I know that well.

[ Sorry, Warrior, squall isn't letting you go quite yet. ]

Then let me, if you know this well.

I will in a bit... but first I want your home to warm up. It's not healthy or safe for you to sleep in this cold environment.

I am alone here. I will be fine.

You're not alone here, because I have a room here too. And I'm too stubborn to let you sleep in the cold.

If there is one thing that I have come to learn while here, it is that our time is finite much as it is within life. But here... here it is a different sort of finite. Perhaps because it is so sudden and to know that memories of these days will not always remain with us.

[ He allows his words to be soft, gently tracing the pads of his fingers over the Wild Rose on the inside of his shield. ]

You should cherish your time with Sora. For I wish to not have you feel this sort of ache.

I lost two important people to me when I was younger... and after coming here I have learned that you should cherish all of your relationships no matter what. Sora will understand if I'm here today, and he'll probably want to smother you with hugs as well.

[ Coming to shake his head slowly, the Warrior then allows his head to bow some. ]

I don't need hugs.

It can't hurt to have them either though, right?

[ Even though his voice is soft, ]

I suppose not.

I won't force him upon you though... but I also won't leave you right now.

[ While he won't speak his thoughts, at some point, Squall will leave and the Warrior will have this house all to himself and while he typically is fine with being on his own... to be without one he had shared gentle touches of affection with in the form of a kiss, a hug, or even a smile... he's not so sure what to do or how it will feel with that loss here now. ]

If that is what you wish.

How do you like crowds?

Why is it that you ask?

I'm sure no one would mind if you wanted to come stay at my place for a while... if you wanted to.

[ The Warrior allows himself to slowly blink at the offer before his gaze returns to that of his shield. ]

Thank you. But it's fine.

I won't force you... but maybe think on it...?

[ Rather than say anything, the Warrior slowly nods once before he goes back to looking at his shield, head bowed, snow still around them. ]

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