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[innermonologues]

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[forthelight]

I thought that I might feel something... that someone... could feel something for me.

[ The words are said softly, the Warrior coming to bow his head as he looks to the words Wild Rose carved within the inside of his shield. An act done so that, should he forget, he may remember with this simple phrase.

Tightly, he squeezes his eyes shut and comes to cradle the shield within his hands, holding it against his chest as he rests his head against it.

And perhaps, while silent, the sound of one who has held so much inside for so long can be heard in the form of gentle sobbing. ]

[innermonologues]

[ Was... he crying? Has Squall ever even seen Warrior feel this amount of sadness before? It was honestly really shocking to him. His hands squeeze Warrior's shoulders until he let himself drop to his knees, hugging Warrior from behind.

He couldn't believe... Warrior was crying, it actually... pained his heart to see this. ]

[forthelight]

[ For as brave and valiant a knight as he is, even one who serves as a Leader for the light can break down when the weight is simply too much on their shoulders.

Rather than say anything or even come to acknowledge the embrace from behind him, the Warrior simply hugs his shield a little tighter, allowing strands of silver and white to fall in front of his face as he does so. ]

[innermonologues]

[ Squall squeezes him tighter from behind, not really sure what else he could do. Warrior was breaking down in ways he didn't think possible. He wasn't even good at cheering Sora up when he was crying, how was he supposed to cheer Warrior up. ]

This really sucks.... this world is testing you hard...

[forthelight]

[ Although unable to convey the importance to Squall, to simply have him here in this moment of what could be considered heartache... it was more than anything he could have asked for, figuring he would simply be left alone in the cold and snow.

Taking a moment to attempt at composing himself some, he allows himself to look back down to the words etched on the inside of his shield and closes his eyes again shortly after. ]

I know not what to do anymore...

[innermonologues]

Heart ache... is probably one of the worst feelings you can feel... it feels like someone stabbed you through the chest, without an actual physical wound... It's.... it sucks.

[forthelight]

[ Slowly coming to blink, the Warrior once again allows his gaze to linger on his shield he holds close. ]

This is... heartache?

[innermonologues]

I think... it must be... I can't speak for your feelings, but... I can say I've never seen this kind of reaction out of you before.

[ Squall shifts closer, letting his head rest on Warrior's shoulder, just a little bit. ]

[forthelight]

Then what am I to do...?

[ For him to feel such pain like this that cannot be so easily cured with a spell or touch of magic... he feels lost. ]

[innermonologues]

Find distractions... Things that you have to concentrate on to keep your mind away from the sad thoughts... FInd a new hobby like cooking... some kind of sport... maybe you could spar a little more. Something like that...?

[forthelight]

[ Rather than say anything at the suggestions offered, the Warrior comes to hold tight to his shield once more, squeezing it for but a moment. ]

I long to sleep...

[innermonologues]

Yeah... these kind of feelings do make you want to sleep a lot... I know that well.

[ Sorry, Warrior, squall isn't letting you go quite yet. ]

[forthelight]

Then let me, if you know this well.

[innermonologues]

I will in a bit... but first I want your home to warm up. It's not healthy or safe for you to sleep in this cold environment.

[forthelight]

I am alone here. I will be fine.

[innermonologues]

You're not alone here, because I have a room here too. And I'm too stubborn to let you sleep in the cold.

[forthelight]

If there is one thing that I have come to learn while here, it is that our time is finite much as it is within life. But here... here it is a different sort of finite. Perhaps because it is so sudden and to know that memories of these days will not always remain with us.

[ He allows his words to be soft, gently tracing the pads of his fingers over the Wild Rose on the inside of his shield. ]

You should cherish your time with Sora. For I wish to not have you feel this sort of ache.

[innermonologues]

I lost two important people to me when I was younger... and after coming here I have learned that you should cherish all of your relationships no matter what. Sora will understand if I'm here today, and he'll probably want to smother you with hugs as well.

[forthelight]

[ Coming to shake his head slowly, the Warrior then allows his head to bow some. ]

I don't need hugs.

[innermonologues]

It can't hurt to have them either though, right?

[forthelight]

[ Even though his voice is soft, ]

I suppose not.

[innermonologues]

I won't force him upon you though... but I also won't leave you right now.

[forthelight]

[ While he won't speak his thoughts, at some point, Squall will leave and the Warrior will have this house all to himself and while he typically is fine with being on his own... to be without one he had shared gentle touches of affection with in the form of a kiss, a hug, or even a smile... he's not so sure what to do or how it will feel with that loss here now. ]

If that is what you wish.

[innermonologues]

How do you like crowds?

[forthelight]

Why is it that you ask?